Finally over!

EXAMS ARE OVER!!!! finally! But one thing that is not over it me and my boy... I am confused, I have confused feelings and thought, and dont know what to do! I dont like thinking about the future and what might happen, I like living the present! Maybe we will end up dating again, or maybe we will break up next week.. ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN! But the thing is, I am confused and dont know what to decide, so while I am 'thinking', is better to be with him than to be alone, right? And btw being with him is the same thing as being alone, just kidding! but similar to that, kk! Another subject in hand, is new years eve, I promised to call 4 of my friends, but my aunt called another friend of mine! Now I need to take 5 friends, and I just discovered today that my little cousin is going to sleep with me! Meaning I have to "uninvite" 2 friends! HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO DO THAT!!! hate this.............

Gonna sleep, my day is FINALLY OVER ;)

Just maybe...

It is almost friday, this means it is almost the day when my exams week ends!! HURRAY!!

I hate when you are being rude to someone, and they act as nothing is happening and are really nice back to you. This is exactly what is happening with my ex-boyfriend and I, who are btw currently having a 'thing'. If is that what we are having... I dont know exactly what we are having or will have. We have dinner dates, but at school we barely talk! Maybe is this exam week that is messing all of our heads. But the truth is I actually dont bother not talking to him, maybe I prefer this way... do I actually like him? or maybe I am just having some fun! But the problem is, he actually likes me, and is not that little, is that much, and if I am fooling him into something that is not.. Then maybe is better to be alone than to break his heart like he did break mine the first time.. Its funny to see how things turned out to be. Back then it was him not caring and fooling around with other girls by my back. And now I crush him, he will do anything I ask for and is the sweetest boy ever to me. Maybe that is the problem, the fact that he want be that much makes me want him that less. We always want what we cant have, and dont want what we have.. maybe I am taking him for granted, maybe that is it... After writing this through, I think I should consider his effort and care more, and sometimes give him a little of what he gives me, care! 

Tired......

DESPERATE NEED OF VACATIONS!! 

cant take this exam week any longer! I dont sleep, cant study and there is no concentration available in my head kk! Cant wait for friday when it all is over =D! wish me luck tomorrow and pray for me! 

I am not just tired of this but all the drama that have been put all over me this week. The father of one of my best friends died, the grandfather of other also died, and at the same time I need to help them with all my heart, I also need to be studying and focusing in my exams! TOO MUCH PRESSURE!! I am freaking out.. tired of all this drama, when will it all end??

Doubtful.. 

One of my best friends just called me with a terrible news... don't feel like actually sharing it here, even though no one is reading or even care.. I am shocked, don't know what to say or to think.. I feel like crying for her and for me.. What is left to do now, is pray and have faith.. After all "a esperança é a ultima que morre..." wish me luck.... 

Uncertain

My friends think I am stronger than they are.. little they know that when things get hard I keep it all to myself.. I am good at acting and pretending that everything is fine.. To pretend have become easy to me this days.. "Things will get better" is what I hear and hope the most, but the truth is nothing is getting better.. Tomorrow is another day and maybe it will actually get better, but just maybe!

Exam Week... kill me!

I am 15 years old and for 2 years now I have been learning and studying for the igcses. It kind of crazy to think that for two years knowledge you only have few hours to write it in a paper. I dont believe this is the way you show someone if you have learned or not.. what if is an really bad day for you? People should not judge your grades but yes your effort. I am dedicated I no that, but usually in tests I get nervous and the results are never perfect.. wish I could be different in this kind of aspect, but I am not.. so, wish me luck guys, I really need it :)

Is second chances the correct choice?

From 29/10/10 to 29/10/11 I dated an boy.. And the day we did one year anniversary, I discovered he was flirting with another girl.. We broke up, and I suffered months because of him.. I didn't know what to do, or how to do without him.. After the new years I had changed, my personality, my way of dealing with problems and people.. I wasn't the same person I was before, maybe more cold, but stronger! Some weeks ago, I gave him a second chance, we are taking it slow and seeing what it will turn out.. But, I don't know if i made the right decision.. How can trust him again? After 8 months practically without even talking or looking at each others face, we are 'together'.. He just sent me a message.. I am wrong to feel wrong?